Tearing Down The House

The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down. ~ Proverb 14:1

My temper can be a problem. 

And the way I can hold onto hurt, disappointment, and frustrations.

When I get upset, my feelings get hurt, or I feel overlooked or unappreciated - I tend to press things down.  I pout over them.  I stew on them.  I let them multiply until it all becomes too much and I blow up over any and every little thing. 

Tearing my house down with my own hands - or words, as the case may be.

"In your anger do not sin. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold" ~ Ephesians 4:26-27

This is an unhappy experience to everyone in the house.  Not just to my family, who suddenly find themselves tiptoeing around wondering what set me off.  It's also hurting me.  The woman letting these feelings dominate me instead of me controlling them.  Once again trying to handle things all by myself.  Instead of holding onto these things, I need to release them to God.  To trust that He is in control.  And while maybe I can't handle all of it - He can! 

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." ~ 1 Peter 5:7
I need to lean on His strength and trust Him to get me through and help me deal with all the little hurts and slights before they boil over into one big mess.

Weary

Friends, the past few days have been some real doozies.   There has been parent-child squabbles, family drama, a painful infected tooth, an allergic rash, etc.  All those things, one after another, start  to make your soul feel weary. 

The enemy always knows when we are weak.  When we are feeling tired.  Or when our hormones are raging away.  He knows where the cracks are, and he will use them as a finger hold to grab on and start pick, pick, picking at your soul. Dropping seeds of self doubt.  Telling you that the burden is too heavy and that you are not enough for all of this.

It's these times when I know I need to get deep into God's word more than ever.  The only thing that can drown out all the lies being whispered into my soul are the solid walls of Truth. 

"for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control." ~ 2 Timothy 1:7

"Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” - Deuteronomy 31:6

"I can do all things through him who strengthens me." ~ Philippians 4:13

The day to day frustrations and trials are going to happen.  They are temporary.  And I don't have to go through them alone.