I know that it's true for many of us when I say - the past few weeks have been stressful. Heck... I could change the word weeks to months or years and the same would still hold true. Am I right, or am I right? Yeh... I'm right.
There's the usual pandemic, political, and natural disaster madness going on in our world that we are all having to cope with. Besides that, over the past couple of weeks, I have also experienced the following: I had a cold, which of course I worried might be Covid, a very sick dog, a reminder from the facility where I get my mammograms that I need to go have a followup to monitor some calcifications, the discovery of my mother's ovarian tumors, a disagreement with one of my sisters, my mother's surgery, her stay in the hospital, more over-the-top family drama, and all while my monthly cycles have gone completely berserk.
Y'all... I'm just tired.
I would like to have just a week or two when I don't have to worry or feel stressed about much of anything. I guess that's not how life works though - is it?
The good news is that no matter how out of control, chaotic or uncertain things may seem - I know that God has a plan and that it is all under His control. In the middle of my exhaustion, my anxiety, and my fears - I know that He is working it all together for good.
Does that stop me from being afraid or feeling worried? I wish I could say "Yes, of course". But it doesn't. I often need a reminder of His goodness and His faithfulness. And even then... sometimes... more often than I care to admit... I still have doubts. I still have anxiety. I still have fears. Because I am human.
Fortunately, God knows this about me. He understands and He meets me right where I am in the middle of my messiness. Which is a good thing. Because life gets pretty messy sometimes.
