Showing posts with label chasing the dream. Show all posts
Showing posts with label chasing the dream. Show all posts
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Tuesday, September 9, 2014
Stuggling with the Brick Wall
I try to keep my blog upbeat. I try to focus on all the things I have to be grateful for in my life. I try to be positive. I don't want to drag everyone down by being one of those blogs that's a big ol' whine-fest of things that bother me. Full of negativity.
But can I be really, really real with y'all for a minute? Cause, truth is - right now I am struggling a little bit.
I have been working on certain projects in my life. (namely my Etsy shop and my writing) Things I was sure were part of God's plan for me. A place where He had brought me. But recently, I have had new things tossed on to my plate which complicate the process of trying to do what I am doing. I find myself feeling as if I running into a brick wall over and over again.
It seems as though at every turn all I am getting is frustration and disappointments.
This leaves me wondering about the path I am on - which I was sure was God's plan - is right. Are the challenges I am facing the enemy trying to distract me from my goals, or is this God correcting some missteps?
I've prayed about it. I've cried over it. I have vented to the Man of the House about it. And (I'm not proud to admit this - it wasn't my finest moment) I've even had some very angry words with God about it.
And still no answers. Still I struggle. Still I cry.
Still I pray.
I haven't given up on my dreams yet. Although there was one day very recently when I was ready to just pack it up, label it "failed experiment", and move on. Burn my bridges behind me. But, I didn't. I couldn't.
I held on, braced myself, and started forward again.
It's not easy.
I try to stay focused on the positives. The silver linings. The glimmers of hope.
Waiting to find the opening in the wall. Or a ladder.
But can I be really, really real with y'all for a minute? Cause, truth is - right now I am struggling a little bit.
I have been working on certain projects in my life. (namely my Etsy shop and my writing) Things I was sure were part of God's plan for me. A place where He had brought me. But recently, I have had new things tossed on to my plate which complicate the process of trying to do what I am doing. I find myself feeling as if I running into a brick wall over and over again.
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It seems as though at every turn all I am getting is frustration and disappointments.
This leaves me wondering about the path I am on - which I was sure was God's plan - is right. Are the challenges I am facing the enemy trying to distract me from my goals, or is this God correcting some missteps?
I've prayed about it. I've cried over it. I have vented to the Man of the House about it. And (I'm not proud to admit this - it wasn't my finest moment) I've even had some very angry words with God about it.
And still no answers. Still I struggle. Still I cry.
Still I pray.
I haven't given up on my dreams yet. Although there was one day very recently when I was ready to just pack it up, label it "failed experiment", and move on. Burn my bridges behind me. But, I didn't. I couldn't.
I held on, braced myself, and started forward again.
It's not easy.
I try to stay focused on the positives. The silver linings. The glimmers of hope.
 |
| photo: publicdomainpictures.net |
Waiting to find the opening in the wall. Or a ladder.
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