Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

I'm Not Writing

Seriously... I'm not writing.

Nothing.

My blog posts have gone down hill.  My journal sits blank for days at a time.  And my "creative" writing journal?  Ha!!

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I'm trying.  Really.  I'm making something that resembles an effort. I open up a fresh blog post and look at it.  I open my journal...and am lucky to get a line or two before I just feel blank.  Or my focus wanders off in another direction.

 I don't know what's wrong with me.  My writing just feels - off.

Now, to be fair to myself - I've been quite off since the time change took place.  Or maybe turning another year older that weekend hit me harder than I realize.  But I've been tired pretty early in the evenings, but still find it difficult to drag myself out of bed in the early mornings.

And I've been feeling a bit sick off and on since late last week.  Especially over this past weekend when I was fighting off a yucky cold.

But, c'mon.

And yes - I know it's normal to go through ups and downs when it comes to writing.  But this time it's not even a lack of inspiration or ideas.  I've got those.  Plenty of them! I just can't seem to make them go anywhere.

I just keep waiting for the flood gates to open and the words to come pouring out!
 


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Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Stuggling with the Brick Wall

I try to keep my blog upbeat.  I try to focus on all the things I have to be grateful for in my life.  I try to be positive.  I don't want to drag everyone down by being one of those blogs that's a big ol' whine-fest of things that bother me.  Full of negativity.

But can I be really, really real with y'all for a minute?  Cause, truth is - right now I am struggling a little bit.

I have been working on certain projects in my life. (namely my Etsy shop and my writing)  Things I was sure were part of God's plan for me.  A place where He had brought me.   But recently, I have had new things tossed on to my plate which complicate the process of trying to do what I am doing.  I find myself feeling as if I running into a brick wall over and over again.

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It seems as though at every turn all I am getting is frustration and disappointments.

This leaves me wondering about the path I am on - which I was sure was God's plan - is right. Are the challenges I am facing the enemy trying to distract me from my goals, or is this God correcting some missteps?

I've prayed about it.  I've cried over it. I have vented to the Man of the House about it.   And (I'm not proud to admit this - it wasn't my finest moment) I've even had some very angry words with God about it. 

And still no answers.  Still I struggle. Still I cry. 

Still I pray.

I haven't given up on my dreams yet.  Although there was one day very recently when I was ready to just pack it up, label it "failed experiment", and move on. Burn my bridges behind me.  But, I didn't.  I couldn't. 

I held on, braced myself, and started forward again.  

It's not easy.

I try to stay focused on the positives.  The silver linings.  The glimmers of hope.

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Waiting to find the opening in the wall. Or a ladder.



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Friday, September 5, 2014

I Should Blog About This

I've been doing some deep thinking recently.  And some not-so-deep thinking also.  As I find myself buried inside my head I often think "I should write/blog about this"


Then the moment passes.

And it's gone.  The thoughts I was thinking.  Vanished.  Like so much smoke in the air.  Leaving me with the knowledge that at some point I had a great idea.  But now it's not even a memory.

Which is just so frustrating!

It happens with dreams also.  I wake from a dream, realizing I should write about whatever it was I was just dreaming.  Then I fall back asleep.  By morning whatever it was which was so brilliant, so witty, so meaningful - has withdrawn back into my subconscious.  Never to be recovered.

I would have way more posts written (and probably be far more entertaining) if I just remember all the great stuff I come up with when I am not anywhere around the computer!



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Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Getting Back

It's been over a week since we returned from vacation.  Nine days to be exact.

And in that 9 days I have managed to write exactly zero blog posts.

The week before vacation, I was a writing machine.  Completing some long neglected drafts.  Creating selections from all new ideas.  The words just seemed to flow from my fingertips.  I had enough posts written and scheduled that most days while I was away there was a fresh shiny new something for all of you to read.

However, now it seems as though all my creativity slipped away into the waters of Lake Murray.  Or perhaps baked away in the South Carolina sun. 

Since returning home, I haven't had the spark to sit down at the computer and put my thoughts into print.  Not a one.  I have picture, upon picture, upon picture from our week away which should be included in a write up or two about our get away. 

I'm starting to have a few tiny little fleeting moments of inspiration.  So, hopefully all of that will be changing soon. 

Vacation is over.  It's time to get back.  To everything.



Tuesday, February 12, 2013

I Got Nuthin' !

I'm in a bit of a dry spell when it comes to my writing. A bit?  That might be an understatement.  Rather than a dry spell, it might be closer to a drought!


I thought I was coming out of the slump last week when I got two ideas in one day.  But those two thoughts seemed to have been the full extent of that particular creative burst. 

*sigh*

So... what's a blogger to do when she can't think of anything to blog about? 

Well, go looking for inspiration - of course!  And while I'm out searching for writing prompts and other sources to get the creative juices going again...

I could use some help!!

Please, please, please head down to che comments and ask me a question.  Or suggest a writing prompt.  Or.... something. (please keep it clean!!)  You just might see your idea in a future post.

Tell me what you got.  Because dear readers - I got a big fat nuthin'!

Thursday, January 17, 2013

It's (mostly) OK

Linking up with A Complete Waste of Makeup for It's OK Thursday




IT'S OK...

That sometimes I just want an hour or two alone

To hope it really does snow so I have a reason to be lazy and just write and craft all day

To let your kid cut school the day after exams

To start getting ready to go to the gym and decide to forget it because it's rainy, cold, and you have other things to get done.

To have a half dozen (or more) partially completed crochet, craft, and DIY projects

That there are two baskets of clean laundry waiting to be folded

Friday, December 28, 2012

Reality Hiatus

hi·a·tus noun \hī-ˈā-təs\

1a : a break in or as if in a material object : gap b : a gap or passage in an anatomical part or organ

2a : an interruption in time or continuity : break; especially : a period when something (as a program or activity) is suspended or interrupted  
I'm taking a break.  

As I prepare for the arrival of my sisters and their families today, and all the fun, laughter, madness, and chaos they will bring to my household for the following days - I realize that writing for my blog will be very low on the priority list.  As a result, I have decided to break until the new year arrives.  

No fears.  I will be back as 2013 begins.  With just as much to say as ever.   

Happy New Year.  Be safe.  Be blessed.  See you soon!

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Gonna Be A Busy Week!



To Do September 17 - 21:

Saturday, September 15, 2012

This Week I Will: Update!

It's time to take a look back at my goals for theweek and see how I've done marking off the ToDo List. 
This was a great week!  I made a lot of progress.  Yah me!! 



  • Do some organizing in craft area! (no, for really reals this time!) Got the crochet patterns organized and into a binder! Hey...it's something!
  • Work on items for Queen B's Busy Work Finished a scarf, have another scarf and a baby hat ready to go online, working on some hats for special requests.
  • Finish and return overdue library book Check!
  • Do some more purging in bedroom It's a work in progress.  But I made a little progress.
  • Freezer cooking of gumbo and chili Check!
  • Attend Little Man's open house Check!
  • Attend Man of the House's first softball game of the season Check!
  • Walk at least 2 days
  • Write Check. 
  • Start working on first Christmas present I found the pattern I want to use and picked up the yarn, so I'm counting it as a Check

Monday, September 3, 2012

Less Time To Do It

I enjoy a good long weekend just as much as anyone else.  But what is it about "short weeks" that always makes me feel a little rushed and stressed? Too much to do, and a day shorter to do it all. 

To Do: September 3 - 7
  • make homemade dishwasher detergent
  • work on Queen B's Busy Work items
  • clean up bedroom - complete with some purging
  • keep mammogram appointment
  • do something (anything) to start organizing craft area
  • library
  • make a decision on at least one Christmas present to make
  • write, Write, WRITE!!

Saturday, September 1, 2012

September Goals

September?  Is that right?  September?  I keep thinking it must be wrong, because I JUST typed out the list of goals for August - like yesterday or the day before, right?  Right? No?  I was afraid of that. 

Oh well.  A new month = new goals.  And here they are.

September Goals:
  • Finish "About" page for Queen B's Busy Work
  • Continue making new items for Queen B's Busy Work
  • Do SOMETHING to start organizing crafting area!
  • Schedule a September date night with The Man of the House
  • Make more time for reading
  • Write everyday - either blogging or writing journal (or both!)
  • Start making at least 2 Christmas presents
  • Take some relaxing time for me each week (give myself a pedi, take a bubble bath, etc)

Sunday, August 26, 2012

What's A Girl To Do?

It's a busy week around here.  A transitional week.  School starts tomorrow.  Guitar lessons and Bible studies are gearing up.  But all the rest of the things that need to be done won't just go away to accommodate all the new things added to the calendar.  Too bad. 

Things To Do This Week:
  • Catch up on the laundry (have to make sure school clothes are clean and ready to wear!)
  • Clean up living room
  • Work on organizing craft area
  • Work on projects for Queen B's Busy Work
  • Finish at least one of the books I'm reading
  • Do some writing
  • Go to library
  • Organize coupons
  • edited to add:  Schedule yearly mammogram!!

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Eighth Month

The 8th month of the year has arrived.  The other months silently slipping away before I realized what was happening and this one taking their place.  August!  How is it August already?  August means the end of summer is close.  It means back to school.  And once that happens, the rest of the year is just a blur.  August.  Wow.

I'm still trying to get a hold of the idea that July is over.  What happened it?  Where did the time go?  Looking back over my goals for that month, I realize that I accomplished a few of them.  Some got a bit of attention, but not as much as I had planned.  And several of them - meh...I'll try to convince myself it's the thought that counts or some other comforting cliche'.

For now, it's on to a new month, and a new set of goals.  Some carry over from July.  Some are fresh for August.

August Goals:

  1. Start some canning and/or freezing!
  2. Take at least one hour of time for myself each week. Give myself a pedi, take a bubble bath, etc., less processed foods. 
  3. Start working on items to increase the inventory for Queen B's Busy Work
  4. Complete "About" page for Queen B's Busy Work 
  5. Daily writing. Not blog stuff - fiction or poetry.
  6. Look into getting a book for help with writing exercises and/or prompts
  7. Schedule a date night with the man of the house.
  8. Get The Little Man ready to go back to school.
  9. Get back on track with household chores.
  10. Work on creating and organizing crafting area in office/guest room.

Friday, July 27, 2012

3:30 am

3:30 am.  Wide awake.  Sort of.  Ok, not really.  Sort of half awake.  Not sleepy enough to go back to dreamland.  Not awake enough to get up and do anything productive. 

This seems to be becoming a regular thing for me.  It's not always 3:30.  Sometimes it's 2:30.  Or 4:30.  The exact time isn't really that important.  What ever the time, there I am in the wee hours of the morning.  Awake enough that it does not qualify as rest.  Sleepy enough not to qualify as awake.

The brain churns at 3:30 am.  I feel pretty sure I am at my most creative in those pre-dawn hours.  There in the dark waits ideas for blog posts, writing journal entries, short stories, and perhaps even a first novel.  I'm a literary genius!  It's not just writing either.  The projects for my Etsy shop, home improvement and decorating, even gift ideas.  It all flows like the wine at a bacchanalia. 

Sadly, they never last.  For, at 3:30 in the morning, my mind is still asleep enough that it can't hold onto the brilliance it creates during that time.  Sleep comes, and washes it all away.  The sun rises and my mind strains trying to recapture even one of the ideas it had in the dark.  But they remain elusive, like forgotten dreams.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

A New Week, A New List

Weekly Goals for July 15 - 20:
  • Write Everyday
  • Catch Up On Laundry
  • Finish Reading 2 Books Before Wednesday
  • Go To Library
  • Bake Cake for Princess's Birthday

Monday, July 9, 2012

Maybe This Week

Ok, I admit that most of last weeks goals did not come to completion.  I've moved on, and so should you.  That was last week.  Maybe this week will be different.

Weekly Goals for July 8 - July 13, 2012
  • Write everyday.
  • Complete Etsy orders and get into mail by Thursday
  • Get that mani/pedi that never happened last week
  • Clean up kitchen (including cleaning out fridge)

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Just Write

“If you want to be a writer, you must do two things above all others: read a lot and write a lot.”  ~ Stephen King

I've got the reading part down.  I read.  A lot.  With no end in sight.  It's the "write a lot" thing that has been lacking. 

I used to write when I was younger.  Mostly poetry.  Bad poetry.  But there were a few flowers among the weeds.  Every now and then I even ventured into a bit of fiction, or a memoir of sorts. 

I constantly made up stories in my head as I went through my day.  Narrating what I was doing to make it seem more interesting, or creating fictional or fantasy stories to entertain myself while I did more mundane things such as homework, walking to the bus stop, or chores.

"Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia." ~ E. L. Doctorow


As always happens, life moved along.  I found myself with two children to raise and little time for writing.  It was a busy, happy time.  I didn't miss the writing.  I didn't even think about it during those years. 

Now the kids are grown, or mostly grown.  Either way, they are developing lives of their own.  They are no longer dependant on me for every tiny thing, and for every second of the day.  Now, there are spaces.  Spaces that are easy to fill with cleaning, reading, crochet, or a multitude of other activities. 

Such as writing.

I find myself thinking about writing.  Thinking about putting pen to paper.  Looking for writing prompts and exercises.  Making up bits and pieces of stories as I do dishes, laundry, or driving in the car. 

Writing is now something I want to do.  A drive to bring words to life.  Perhaps it was always there, and the blogging has just helped to breathe new life into it. 

“If you want to be a writer, you have to write every day... You don't go to a well once but daily. You don't skip a child's breakfast or forget to wake up in the morning...” ~ Walter Mosley



I've made myself a promise to write everyday.  For this purpose, blogging doesn't count.  Real, honest to goodness, pen to paper writing.  It doesn't matter if it's good, bad, boring drivel, or something with potential.  I will write. 

Now I find myself craving a notebook and a stash of pens specifically for writing.  A lovely, journal type notebook. Something of decent size with plenty of blank, lined pages for writing.  And good pens.  Pens that don't leave globs of ink or drag on the paper.   That along with a few words of inspiration, and some time to sit quietly and let my thoughts flow.


"We do not write because we want to; we write because we have to." ~ Somerset Maugham








Monday, July 2, 2012

So Much To Do, So Little Time

Appearing for the first time ever,  all the things I hope to accomplish this week.  (I know.. the excitement is almost overwhelming, isn't it?)

Weekly Goals for July 2 - July 6, 2012
  1. Write everyday.
  2. Get dining room and back porch cleaned up.
  3. Complete 3 pairs of flipflops
  4. Start new crochet project for Queen B's Busy Work
  5. Find time to go get mani/pedi

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Jumping Into July

July is here.  And baby, it's HOT outside!  Which leaves plenty of time for inside activities and making lists of things I want to get accomplished.  Along that line of thought, let me share with you my

Goals for July:

  1. Get out on to the back deck in the mornings to enjoy some coffee, reading, and fresh air - before the day gets too hot.
  2. Take at least one hour of time for myself each week.  Give myself a pedi, take a bubble bath, etc.
  3. Continue feeding the family healthier, less processed foods.
  4. Start creating a list of back to school/autumn type items for Queen B's Busy Work
  5. Complete "About" page for Queen B's Busy Work
  6. Do some writing. Not blog stuff - fiction or poetry.
  7. Make time for a Date Night with the man of the house.  (or even better - an entire date day!)
  8. Start some canning and/or freezing!
  9. Take at least one photograph per day.
  10. Get back on track with household chores.